outofherdamnmind

I might become a mom this weekend. My due date is tomorrow.. but I'm sure she wont be here at this date I'm just excited for this whole being pregnant thing to be over and to start my journey as a momma. I'm sure it wont be easy... but I'm sure I'll grow live and learn just as much as my new daughter will.

I've been trying to apply for food stamps and shit and it has literally just been a months process to talk about it, get a ride down there and apply. So now that I've applied I have to wait for my boyfriend to get all his important documents from his mother... But they aren't on speaking terms so I somehow have to do it. This isn't easy.. but I will do all that I can for my kid. I refuse to move into the house my boyfriend lives at simply because there are too many people and it would be too expensive.. and nothing would really be mine, no thanks I'll just suffer living with my parents for like 3 more months until we can get out apartment.

So not only is this baby making me feel immense pains in my hoo-haa it's kicking the shit outta me. I need to call and get a new medicaid card and set up another appointment, for i missed my last one. It's important that I know what goes on monthly for myself and the little one. Besides that, the boyfriend isn't helping ease any of my stress. No, I'm not gonna write about him because i don't want anyone to bash on what they really couldn't understand, but point is, I need him here in ways he isn't showing up for me. If anything really badly right now. *sigh* it's just one of those days i guess. I need to stop smoking weed for a while soon